something funny today....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VTNkSrzas4o&feature=channel

what can take away ambition and yet give us focus ?

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another coffin nail in xanga i think.....massaging has gotten a little out of hand.......mass massaging spam in the end is just being an ASS.....

......oh the joys of birth......being born into two sets of rules......like moon and sun my life has been lived two fold....one as an american boy eating sloppy joe's and chicken that looks nothing like a chicken...

the other as the son of a sun.....learning that a hand is who he must be.....no matter how free he longs to become....he will be bound to the oaths of being raised as a chinese son

yet without the two fold draw there would never have been "the hands with eyes....." nor "the ears of touch"

as of late eye have been withdrawn from being withdrawn...jumping in even when judgment said it best to let it sail with the breeze.....yet i had an idea you see....so i took it to the eyes....so it was mouthed that a whisper is all eye can offer in painting the idea.....but eye will say

"eye wish to have a little ....."

i just want to...i just want too....yet there is no need too...."sew eye sea past myself"...why do i deny my wants.... "fore eye no that all is here none the less"

lol i don't know anything about goverment lo

......with all the understanding i've been doing i never did bother to ask....what was before me...sure i grasp how life works...but the system of government itself is barely known to me.....it has never been of interest to me.....and still isn't....so i wonder should i be ashemed....as i never claimed to be anything more then human....as no matter how much freedom these lands may offer....they are nothing compared to the freedom of being human.....

but that leads to what it means to be human....which in the end is its own freedom....which why i do not paint this freedom...it is open for all to shape....yet we all share the silent dream....

the shyt never hits the fan for me
no i just learned to move out of the way
or just stopping before the fire grew too large
there is just too much company to remain a fool

you see i say this because it seems like everyone else who has said it before...that xanga is being broken into so many different smaller groups......i see the up sides(people seeking help or advice hae a source) but i also see the down side....the subject matter of post have changed....

it use to be people posted what they wanted...blogged about what ever they wanted....now i have the feeling there is a change in the mood of our posting minds......it has changed to "what will get me the most attention"......which to me is no better then being in high school all over again....i guess it is as before i never liked the click mentality... the rein of lumping people together.....

i know by just saying that it is like high school all over again is in turn making myself one of those lumpers.....i also know there are alot of people on xanga still in high school or just getting out of it.....i do not mean to be little them in any way.... high school is rough at that age.....

my problem is that i am not in high school any more..nor am that age any more...though i do get wishful at times....no it is not about content as much as texture....i can jump from any window it is my gift....so reading different points of views are fun for me...but it seems of late all i see are the same post...even this one i am sure is nothing new..

secondly i did not come to xanga to find me a special someone....."cos eye find a place in my being for everyone eye encounter".. i came to xanga as a place to reveal myself without giving away anything i didn't want to......it was mine...i don't mean i owned xanga but they gave me a piece of internet land and i was free to grow what i wanted with it....i am not saying xanga is stopping me from doing so......i am just saying the ambiance is no longer the one i came to love and enjoy.... there use to be merit in the front page of xanga....and if you look today it is rather questionable to me......

there use to be many things about xanga....things change i know that...but i think it best if xanga slowed down...it use to be one could find the clicks in xanga through blog rings.....i use to be able to just look through the blog rings to find if someone could answer or if they had already asked my questions.....sure i had to do the looking and digging but that was the fun of it for me.....

though i am glad the poets corner is still alive...and sad that it has been ages since i surfed along those waves.....that use to be my ole retreat when i didn't want to foster my own mind...merely letting another paint the world for me...if only for a few seconds.....

i have never had many readers which is a good thing...as mostly nothing i have ever posted really mattered.... it was just like how some one opens a glass of wine for me.....i'd start typing sipping thoughts here and there....and by the end i knew it was always worth the time....to have bothered to share the echoes in ones mind....